I can't really believe this, but for decades I have been using a word that doesn't actually exist !!!
Whenever I wanted to describe selfish narcissism I used the word :
...thinking that it was a perfectly valid word and in the dictionary.
Not only am I very, very wrong; I just googled the world and the only person who has ever used it is ME!!!
If only there was a blanket big enough for me to hide under in my shame....